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Struggle

by mulmeyun

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1.
Deus Vult 04:32
No! Oh my life! Has it all, come to pass? Can this be? In the end Do we all, turn to dust? Is it true? Do I not, have a soul? Have a God? Don't you forget! No! I won't go! I won't die! I'll return For my time On this earth Is too short for my fate As my life has no end I now I'll be reborn Never forget those before you! The struggle for honour The passing of time The feats you achieved that leave your mark on this world As you will remember Who you were in past life You will see that the things you thought they mattered, Were but only something temporary! Now! It has come The time for a new life I will not throw it all It must be Meaningful If we can't be so sure Of the things That will be Don't you forget! So, hurry up! It must be, your demand Only you, have the key To unlock, destiny Even though It is hard Carry on! Carry on! Take this with you Lest you forget those before you I'll! Be the one to pull The sword in stone The one to cut The Gordian knot The one to lead The siege of Orleans To split to sea To lead on! Deus vult! Deus vult! Deus vult! Charge! Deus vult! Deus vult! Deus vult! Gloria! ¡Santiago! ¡Santiago! ¡Santiago! ¡Santiago y cierra, España! Fight on! Fight on! Fight on! Fight! Fight! Go! The struggle for honour The passing of time The feats you achieve that leave your mark on this world As you will remember Who you were in past life You'll see that the things you thought they mattered, Were nothing you could take with you, They are only something temporary!
2.
Death won once more Left me alone She took my love And all my hope For life means woe Without her warmth Come now my son Give in your soul I shall join thee But first... You jump I've given up on life I've given up. Oh lord! I've given up on light I've given up my love Why can't we see What holds us back What makes us fall I need to know Are we really that far? Am I so blind? Lost all control Glum and undone Chained to your spell Do what you may Don't want your help I no longer care All we've been through is loss! Always searching for love Why i cannot let go? All this flailing naught! This arms are so weak Creak! Around me so bleak Grieve! Did i fell this deep? Sea! My wounds will not heal Weep! What am i looking for, When I yearn your eyes? What is that I've found? That drags me to my fall? For my sullen nature Should keep me out Yet i still find me Trapped, inside yours charms I see no god when i seek your smile Yet I feel my faith rise above the stars That I'm sure for you also sigh Endless mourn All forlorn This earth full of thorns Cursed when i was born For me To sob Don't belong I am scorned Doomed to this cold To shiver 'till old All alone I bemoan You I Adored Iñce mülmülun Mülmülngewen Chopülln Chompülln Ütre Wütren Konwütrelen Mülmülngewen Iñce mülmülun Mülmülun Mülmülun And despite all I've done to fit in Their cruel words still would burn through my heart and my skin As if frost and this snow were their curse I'm condemn to be lone, everyday getting worse So as they lay their heads to rest! I'll be the one to raise the dead! Soon they will know of my revenge! Will rip their skulls, I cannot wait! Even though you are gone I'll attain what you sought, I will bring your new dawn As if frost and this snow were my own As if god will it so, to strike with no remorse! So as they lay their heads to rest! I'll be the one to raise the dead! Soon they will know of my revenge! Will rip their skulls, I cannot wait! Death won once more... Left me alone She took my love... And all my hope For life means woe... Without her warmth Come now my son... Give in your soul... So I may soar... My hate I'll pour.... For her I swore... You'll hear my roar! And despite all I've done, you are gone! I will never belong, everyday killing more! As if frost and this snow were my own! I'll attain what you sought, I will bring your new dawn! So as they lay their heads to rest! I'll be the one to raise the dead! Soon they will know of my revenge! Will rip their skulls, I cannot wait!
3.
Go on. Change the world With your ten hour speech! You hide in your words Yet decry those who do! In love you believe Yet with rage you react! Oh please, don't be blind You're just a selfish beast! Go and make the fights stop (It's not like it is my fault) Don't you say they ain't right? (I'm not doing any harm) You love for convenience (I do only what i want) You'd kill if you could Would you? Just how have we made it this far? When we only try to tear us apart Will we ever do what we say? I cannot wait for this whole thing to end Why await a redemption that no one deserves? Damned by desire Oh, aren't we all? Everyone will try to break you! You must trust no one! As soon as you give them a chance They will stab your back! Who cares in what they believe in? They live for themselves Even when they flaunt their virtue It is to pretend! In the end Satan did won Christ stands alone Simply walk beside dying men Yet you'd cry for dogs! Screaming that there is no justice When you want revenge! Why bother with second chances? We should kill them all! I am always being righteous You're the one at fault! I am sure You've thought this all You are who's wrong
4.
Over a thousand hills she stood And none seemed greater than her With eyes arctic cold Her gaze, burned us all... As she became my will to live All ahead me was gloom... When night came anew My dreams she drew Her darkly hue Was my doom! Would you bother to hear me? Even though, I've got nothing to say I want you, to be near me... You can act, as if I wasn't there... Your coldness I greet As your body I feel Your lips so sweet All mine to please! But wherever she walked Demise would follow through Soon a plan was devised They'd kill her at noon All the love we had made Well I would fall too By the hate they had wrought Exhale the pain away... My home is your home You are not alone... I'll be gone, not, in vain This cry, you must, restrain Having left her soul I've been screaming, for too long... A sad face replies I can only do this much For she knew her death was close For she knew I'd grieve my loss For she knew that all was lost For the sun brings no warmth To this frozen dying land Give yourself to God You alone have no chance But if I were to live If I indeed believe Maybe something would come Perhaps I won't be undone... But woe is me I cannot see Please darkness, let me be! From a lone heart Come forth this words Hideous thoughts sown by you! Love of my life Where have you gone? Now I miss you far too much! Lord, all my life I've prayed to you Oh why have you been gone? How little they care for me... How little they're moved by my pain... So lonely it falls this rain... So heavy they fell my tears... Your life's not yours to live on your own Your life's not yours to suffer alone Your life's not yours to live on your own Your life's not yours to suffer alone Your life's not yours to live on your own Your life's not yours to suffer alone Your life's not yours to live on your own Your life's not yours to suffer alone Your life's not yours to live on your own! Your life's not yours to suffer alone! Your life's not yours to live on your own! Your life's not yours to suffer alone! Your life is to suffer! Your life is to suffer! Your life is to suffer! To suffer your lies! Vainly grasp into blackness Still search for your doll face From when the snow melts, to when it falls again Daily covet your lightness Can't live with this heartbreak For my self is pure sadness, without your song!
5.
Lyrics by koro The sun in the cloudy sky hides her face as if with thin silk She manipulates clowns with deceitful speeches and performances A piece of our future that is slowly washed away by time Even now, the clowns are loudly worried of what tomorrow will come to be Even now, everyday life spreads out before my eyes. White clouds on blue sky And so it comes at any time, like it always does, a terrible message Jumping off the rooftop, it is the end of, of our lives Again, it is a thought that surprises no one, it is a future without change We walk into the city now As if we were stray sheep Covering our eyes from the true reality Expressing love for others It is beyond redemption As all things have been taken from us By selfish people The industrial machine that illuminates today's sky, now dripping red The only thing that could support this stage, was to give in to the methods we used The twilight of our future can now be seen lying on the roadside The flaming party flag illuminates in a future where no one will survive The one to carry with the blame To be sent as a scapegoat Turning people away from the truth. Inconvenient It is an art of decadence, apolutrosis Dying from having to be so lone, for nothing I've done Now I just! Now I just! Now I just! Even though I continue getting lost Now I just! Now I just! I just want to simply hold your hand! Now I just! Now I just! Now I go into the coming dark age Now I just! Now I just! Now I just! Now I just! Now I just can't live like this! No one believes it anymore. Lonely wolf Resentment for the world you live in, consumes you The proof is in your art. Spree killer A world you can believe in no more. Say "sayonara" Even though! Even though! Even though! Even if you stray away from the light! Even though! Even though! In return I'll still hold your hand! Even though! Even though! Only darkness is coming tomorrow Even though! Even though! This era is coming to an end One day we! One day we! One day we'll! We will tear the veil that covers our sight! One day I! One day I! I will confess all my love for you! One day we! One day we! We are heading far beyond the darkness One day we! One day I! One day we! One day I! One day we will be somewhere...
6.
I used to dream Of us. Together And that you said All I, desired... And that you smiled So pure And honest I thought I knew What meant, to be loved To love you is pain! To feel you is doom! A bitter verse to sing To love you is pain! To feel you is doom! A tragic faith to live And everyday... I hoped, to see you So I could make... You feel. Exalted And as days pass I think Of your lips But your image Now seems, distorted To love you is pain! To feel you is doom! Can't tell what's dream or life To love you is pain! To feel you is doom! Was it all just my mind? Oh! when our eyes meet, Do you feel the same? What hides that cold smile, You're so used to fake? There's no need to Need to turn away 'Cause we could stay here We could stare all day But what you see... Is a mere ruin... Of what we were... So soon it came The time to part May you find happiness It's all about giving yourself! I couldn't be Your beloved one Go find your other half In the end it's being together! You never know Who will be there For you, any would be They will come and go, make them stay! You fell in love But not for him You want to be adored It's not who it is the feeling! How much time has passed, Since I felt your skin? How we wept and danced, We'll relive this day Your! Lies! They! All! Ways! Served! You! Well! Oh! Why? Must... You? Have the world at your feet! Please! Have... Mer- Cy! As we chose to believe... Why try? To know? If ignorance is bliss I wanna suffer! I want! To learn! Oh! What it takes to control your heart! Give me! Your mind I need to know if I roam in there I'm keen! To see And drown myself in more uncertainty! As hard as I tried to forget I could not let go But now that I hold you again I can feel the same That dark sense of loss and defeat That has haunted me Since you cursed my life With those eyes A sigh of hopelessness... A silent lament... A tale of love...

about

"Struggle" is about many things. The songs came about over roughly 5 years and tell the story of my coming of age, they are however not autobiographical at all, but a reflection of what I felt while writing them.

The main struggle is establishing an identity, so it deals with heritage, relationships with others, love, religion, everything that defines who you are and how the world perceives you.

It is about meaning, struggling with the idea of god. It gets pretty gloomy at times, but I don't think I could have done anything else, it wouldn't have been real.

This whole journey has been quite cathartic and I hope you can find comfort in these sounds as I have. It is relieving to cry, to scream, to shout loudly who you are and what you believe in, to feel proud of your ancestors, your country, your language and acknowledge everything that comes with it. You will find a lot of resistance, but I think it is that eternal struggle what gives life purpose. Learn to savor the negative emotions, cause they come in metric tons, if you love to fight, then your injuries are medals of honor, you will learn a lot from them and you'll look forward to the next challenge, even if you know you can be hurt.

For now, you can enjoy the music.

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I'll be releasing an updated version of this album very soon, there are some things i left out this time, like an introduction, a couple of interludes and an outro, I didn't want to burden the listener too much, as the tempos are very brooding and the themes long winded, but I still want to conceive this as I imagine it in my head, since I'm this close already, it shouldn't take too long before I post a "deluxe" version. If you purchase this one, the update will be free for you.

Booklet with lyrics to come as well and I owe an orchestral score to someone,so stay tuned.

credits

released April 28, 2020

Thanks to koro (twitter.com/magical_noumiso) for letting me use his song and helping a lot to cover it, I hope I did it justice, please go check the original version too!

【VOCALOID】はもえないだけれど【Miku Hatsune】
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Mulmeyun is a project that seeks an answer to the hopelessness of the modern era. Against the absurdity and nihilism that rots the very basis of today's culture, it recognizes suffering and sacrifice as necessary for a brighter future, thus it wishes your tears be plentiful so as to water your spirit and destruction be at your wake so as you hate no one.

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